urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle michelle michelle 2005-06-24T06:23:18Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:21612 2005-06-24T06:23:18Z 2005-06-24T06:23:18Z sometimes... i need a reminder of why i should stay away from jesse... <br />1. jenny<br />2. kristine<br />3. alexis<br />4. that nite at jame's house...<br />5. being ditched last nite<br />6. ... and the nite b4 that<br />7. his retarded friends.<br />8. he cant commit.<br />9. the way he acted while dating chealsea.. oh god<br />10. drug problems... could be bad influence on me?<br />11. all those videos<br />12. all the lies.<br />13. he only wants me when im dating someone else.. otherwise takes me for granted.<br />14. new years eve...two years ago<br />15. my post partum body<br />16. he needs to hold a damn job for once!<br />17. the things he said while on E... bullshit.<br />18. walkin thru tha mall<br />19. walking into the tattoo place in BC<br />20. so many fucking secrets... his truck. AND the list goes on...but i must go. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:21411 2005-01-06T04:57:04Z 2005-01-06T04:57:04Z fuck man, i am madly in love with jesse!! cant think about anything else. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:21049 2005-01-05T05:34:35Z 2005-01-05T05:34:35Z i forgot i had a live journal. its been like a year since ive been on here. and a LOT has happened since then. i am now 7 months pregnant with a baby boy and practially back together with jesse, which i really hope works out this time!! feels like it will, but i always think that in the beginning... so ill just have to see what happenes, i think he is a little freaked out about me having this baby. His name is going to be Shane Patrick! jen and i just switched bedrooms to make room for a crib in my room. cuz b4 i had the smallest bedroom in the house, it was like living in a shoe box. there isnt much for me to talk about considering i barely leave the hosue anymore, all i do is stay home, when i wanna go out and about i just go shopping for baby clothes. i already have a big collection goin, i am addicted to buying then because they are just soo darn cute and tiny! i cant wait to get this baby outta me i dont think i can take it any longer! im a little scared for the labor and birth! its gonna hurt like a bitch, i just hope its quick and i wont have to get a C-Section cuz that would super suck. i wanna see what the baby looks like already, its killing me! <br />My sister jen and i havent been getting along for the last month now. every single time she comes home she is super bitchy and cranky to all of us, she is sooo impossible to get along with these days it drives me insane to be around her, i cant stand it. im like begging my mother to kick her bitchy, spoiled little punk ass out! everything is peaceful around the house untill she comes home! every single day!<br />Its kinda sad that my daddy isnt around to see his first gandchild! ive been kinda depressed about that. actually i have been depressed about everything lately i just feel all yucky all the time and i have become really anti-social. i dont really like hanging out with groups of friends anymore, the only person i wanna hang out with is jesse alone. which makes me feel bad cuz my friends all think im ignoring them or ditching them. i dont mean to, im just not up to hanging out. anyways i have nothing more to say... nothing exciting in my life anymore. maybe i will write again soon. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:20991 2004-03-11T07:01:48Z 2004-03-11T07:01:48Z he is moving back to seattle for the summer!!! im sooo excited! too bad i chickened out for asking him to tolo!!!!! damn it! i might be going to school with him next year! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:20624 2004-01-21T08:12:36Z 2004-01-21T08:12:36Z dave matthews - under tha table and dreaming yesterday KT and i went up to the mountains and went intertubing, it was soo much fun! next weekend we are gonna go up and learn to snowboard! yay! i cant wait!<br /><br />saw Dave Matthews last week at the Key arena....it was SOOOOO GOOD! i had soo much fun, and i fell 10 times more in love with him than i was before, which i didnt know was possible! he is soooo sexy! and they put on such an awsome show! speaking of dave, chris ....(or john doe!) is comming back to seattle later this month, i get to see him YAY! its been soooo long! cuz he moved to yakima. *sad face* too bad he moved, i miss him sooo much. but imma hang out with him/maybe go to winter ball with him, so it will be fun times, im really excited. <br /><br />yardy is a sweetheart! he picked me up from volleyball the other nite, suprising me, and took me out to dinner! it was fun! a very nice suprise!!! i feel really good about our relationship right now....i think its gonna last, he makes me really happy. <br /><br />volleyball is going well, it is fun as always, but my moms trying to make me quit! ill be sooooo mad if i cant play! my mom is making me very mad these last few days! we have NOT been getting along. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:20246 2004-01-09T07:58:08Z 2004-01-09T07:58:08Z this week has gone by sooo fast with the snow days! its soo great! man its been a long ass time since i have updated this thingie! hmm the biggest news is i got a new BF! yes, his name is yarden and he is a cutie, very sweet! we have been together for about a month and a half now, and i have a very good feeling about us! jesse and are are still good friends and still talk every day now. he just got back from ireland and is going 2 north seattle CC with me now. he brought me back a really kewl necklace! hmm, i dont know wut else to say! so much has happened in tha last few months! jesse and i got into a HUGE fight and didnt talk for a month, jen moved back in. hmm wut else..i am trying to think... i just started a new quarter at north, my classes are Philosophy, History and English. ill update this more later. g2g. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:19981 2003-09-23T06:36:27Z 2003-09-23T06:36:27Z kenny chesney haha today matise, a freshamn from volleyball got creeked by the captains!!! funny ass shit! i aslo went out to dinner with jesse and his parents and then back to jesses and watched a movie, it was a wierd ass movie called 'bulletproof monk'. <br /><br />this weekend was tite; friday nite i got drunk with katrina alex and jesse, saturday i got really high with my sister, we hotboxed a tent in her backyard! and sunday i got high with jesse and friends. it was fun shit. hella relaxing! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:19923 2003-09-18T07:40:39Z 2003-09-18T07:40:39Z white stripes They beat us damn it! we coulda had them if we all woulda played our very best and not have been soo damn intimitdated! everyone on our team was shaking in their boots! its was soo unessesary for everyone to be so scared cuz they werent even that good! they just had some tall girls that could block! not that big of a deal! ooh well toooooo late. they are the best team we'll play this season so its not sooooo bad i guess. it was soo embarressing though because it was our first home game and there were lots of people there! oh well. school was so lame today! soo boring. aah my classes suck! oh well...tomorrow we are baking biscuts in nutrition, that will be fun! <br />i went to running start orientation today....sat next to sarah neilson, THAT was INTERESTING! (i mean sitting next to sara was interesting) the orientation itself was pretty boring but kinda scary cuz they filled us in on tha fact that we are gonna have LOTS of homework! its gonna suck! aaaah. <br />last nite i got an email from chris and wrote him a fatty one back. i miss him! <br />im trying to get my friend stephen to go out with my friend katie now! haha im setting them up! she thinks he is hella CUTE! i hope they go out!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:19477 2003-09-16T05:20:06Z 2003-09-16T05:20:06Z i talked to Chris last nite!!!!! we play blanchet this wednesday at hale - BIG GAME!!!!!<br />we GOTTA beat 'em!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:19345 2003-09-10T06:18:12Z 2003-09-10T06:18:12Z soo i made varsity! thats good news! and we had our first match today...we WON of course. it was freaking awsome! i had soo much fun. i loved it! i got a lot of playing time too i was suprised! i didnt get to start tho. but aaah it was wonderful! Gosh i LOVE volleyball!<br />(ooh yeah...last weekend we initiated all the freshman....it was good times 2!)<br /><br />2 weeks ago i spent all 4 days at bumbershoot, it was tHA shit! tons of fun and great concerts. fun to see EVERYONE there! soo many people and old friends i talked to! it was good times! <br /><br />my classes at hale are alright so far, 5th and 6th periods. there arent many seniors in them tho so its kinda sad, but i guess theyre tite. <br /><br />damn i am missing jesse hella! i love him soo much! (he is still me bestest friend THO!) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:18993 2003-08-28T03:26:59Z 2003-08-28T03:26:59Z i think yesterday and today i totally blew any chances i had of making it to varsity this year with volleyball! yesterday i played really really bad and today my coach tells me im blowing it cuz i talk too much!!! so that really sux for me. no varsity i guess, im not even sure if i wanna play at all if i get puy on JV. cuz im a freakin senior!! <br /><br />i passed my running start test though! i got a 99%!!!!!!!! yay for me, but it is kinda sad that im not really gonna be going to hale anymore! <br /><br />i finally am driving my car!!! i got it up to 3rd gear today! thats a big step for me! yay 4 me! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:18851 2003-08-26T09:38:54Z 2003-08-26T09:38:54Z my angelfish died today!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:18634 2003-08-26T09:35:51Z 2003-08-26T09:35:51Z ben harper 4 sho! Jack Johnson and Ben Harper at the Gorge was so much fun! it was super awsome! i saw toms of my friends there too it was tight! i had a really great time.<br /><br />today was the first day of volleyball tryouts at Hale, i think i did alright but not great, im gonna be really sore tomorrow! its gonna suck. it was fun tho to see all the girls from the team that i havent seen all summer! <br /><br />went to ali's tonite for her 18th birthday party, it was fun. it was me, ali, her parents, her sister, catlin and katrina. her dad made really yummy dinner and her mom made bomb dessert, it was fun to have a girls night for once in my life! afterwards, katrina and i went and hung out and talked about boys and stuff for a couple of hours it was good times. i love that girl, she is just the best! <br /><br />i got a JOB today! im soo excited! i have needed a job for soo long now! my brother called me offering me a job at his work. its very part time and pays $10 an hour, so its good for me cuz im gonna be really busy with school and volleyball. its kool too cuz my boss is my brothers good friend and its kool if i say i cant work if im busy with volleyball or something cuz my coaches are very strict about not missing practices. so it works out really well. im really happy. <br /><br />i take my test to get into running start this week. im pretty sure ill pass, i dont think it will be too hard. if i pass than ill hopefully do full time running start at North seattle Community College. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:18427 2003-08-22T01:13:06Z 2003-08-22T01:13:06Z J.J. im so excited for Jack Johnson and Ben Harper! its in 2 days! yay!!! and then the next weekend is bumbershoot, its gonna be tha shit this year im going for all 4 days!!! im leaving tomorrow morning for the gorge and rock climbing in vantage!!! yay it will be the best weekend. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:18018 2003-08-20T19:22:32Z 2003-08-20T19:22:32Z dave i just got tickets to see jack johnson and ben harper at the gorge this saturday!!!!! SWEEEEET!!! im soooooooo excited!!!!!! <br /><br />im never going to crew again with a hangover! aah, its bad news. i drank and smoked too much last night! <br /><br />hmm, might be goin to Chelan tonight.....not sure. if i do it will be fun times tho! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:17700 2003-08-19T02:51:19Z 2003-08-19T02:51:19Z dave matthews band yay i finally got him a name. the fish's name is maurice. the fishies are all so cute. i just adore them all. ive been chillin at home babysitin most of the day, but later tonite ill be spending the nite over at jesses. <br /><br /> muahahahahaha. operation: UNSOLVED MYSTERIES....comming soon. its gonna be great! what a plan! <br /><br />volleyball tryouts are NEXT WEEK!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:17492 2003-08-18T05:35:26Z 2003-08-18T05:35:26Z dave!!! so yesterday jesse and i got back from ocean shores (fun trip) and he bought me 2 more fishies! they are soo cute, they are tiger barbs. really cute! but today when i came home from alecs house...one of the angel fish, the one named oreo, was dead. so sad. now i have only 6 fishies. very very sad. <br /><br />one of the fishies names is "green cup" i LOVE that name. he is the special one. the other fishies names are ... sam, jack, donatello, and they new ones name is orange juice, jesse named that one! he is orange too...but green cup...he is not green. he is orange with black strpies. there is one that we got yesterday that i have not thought of a name for yet...anyone have any ideas??? please! any good fish names?<br /><br />my trip to onean shores...was interesting. fun riding mopeds with jesse and hangin out on the beach at night, but there was some drama, as usual. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:17208 2003-08-13T22:58:02Z 2003-08-13T22:58:02Z Tim McGraw the concert was sooooooooooooooooooo GREAT!!!!!! i had sooooooo much FUN!!!!!!!! dave matthews is amazing! <br /><br />i guess kristine and are are kewl now...i dunno, we both agree that jesse lies a lot. oh well, what can ya do? <br /><br />i am having fun with crew every morning. i finally moved seats away form this REALLY annoying girl, so thats good. <br /><br />school starts waaaay too soon!!! aah!<br /><br />i got 5 new fishies jesse bought me! and theyre all still alive!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:16994 2003-08-02T07:20:04Z 2003-08-02T07:20:04Z aimee mann sooo today, woke up at 6:45 to go take my driving test at the DOL, i was there for like 3 hours waiting, but, I PASSED MY TEST!!! yay. so now i got my liscence and got insursnce too! i can drive! plus i went and put new brakes on my car and took it home finally. yipee. next week is dave matthews!!!! hahaha YES!!! ooh sad news....dane is moving to montana for good on monday! and chris moves on the 22nd of next month, but i am meeting up with him at the gorge, it will be so much fun. aah i cant wait. so sad jen has to miss it tho, cuz now it just wont be the same w/out her. (*sad face*) today was a great day! got my car and my liscence and haha, spent like 2 hours cleaning it! ooh my goodness it was dirty...and its still not ALL the way clean yet!! anyways...tomorrow ill practice driving it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:16693 2003-07-27T16:26:19Z 2003-07-27T16:26:19Z Shania Twain - Any Man of Mine Yesterday i chilled at the beach again with a friend. it was koo, went swimming and stuff. we just found out that jen cant make it to the dave concert!!! this sux sooo bad!!!! who am i gonna go with? she is the one who introduced me to dave!!! i am so sad, it wont be half as fun now!!! i got a volenteer job yesterday, so i can get all my community service hours in for school, at the libraray. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:16432 2003-07-25T21:57:57Z 2003-07-25T21:57:57Z dave matthews band - lillie white sessions two nights ago i saw suzanne vega in concert, it was fun, she was great. next week i am seeing aimee man in concert! yay. and then after that....DAVE~!!! yay. got my hair cut today and i hate it!!! it is much too short!! i got it done for senior pics but i really hate it and it looks really teerrible! so now my pictures are screwed i guess, sucks for me. soon i start crew and will have to be waking up at 7 every morning for the rest of the summer!!!! aah. i am looking forward to rowing but i dunno about waking up so early! i still have to do my summer reading for school! i have not even started it, crap. tonight i am going over to my sisters house in bellevue for my brothers birthday party. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:16337 2003-07-22T03:02:38Z 2003-07-22T03:05:22Z susanne vega i chilled at the beach today with a freind. i got ANOTHER bee sting! gosh i have the worst luck. oh my goodness. it hurt like a bitch but we iced it to make it numb and stop the swelling. today was soo nice out!!! <br /><br />oh i finally talked to john doe last night!!! i guess he was in yakima the whole time and is moving there next month! he wont be going to hale anymore. so sad. but i will be seeing him b4 he leaves, so thats good. but i am gonna miss him, i almost creid when he told me. i guess nobody really knows either, i was the first persom he told, dane is moving away too. so sad. gosh i am gonna miss that kid. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:15908 2003-07-20T00:41:44Z 2003-07-20T00:41:44Z matchbox 20 yay! i see susan vega wednesday and dave is soo soon too! soo soon! i chilled with one of my really really old friends this weekend. i met some very hot guys! looked just like abercrombie models i swear! it was soo much fun.. we went out on this guys boat and went tubing....good times. we also went to the Bite of Seattle. good food. came home and jesse was here...that was an interesting suprise. i got a little bit of a tan!!!! yay 4 me. now i am baout to go chill with either scott or colin or jesse R cant really decide. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:15782 2003-07-16T21:15:45Z 2003-07-16T21:15:45Z none FUCK EVERYBODY!!!! fuck the whole world. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:squirmy_turttle:15363 2003-07-15T08:33:51Z 2003-07-15T08:33:51Z well i am singing a Suzanna Vega song!!! i miss jesse a lot!!! i really really miss him. i miss kissing him and having him hold me and being with him and just being together and happy. i miss him soo much. i miss jesse.